In life, we aim to accomplish as many wishes as we could. Earn lots of money. Be financially wealthy and stable. Get your ideal partner. Have a grand wedding. Buy ideal house and car. Stay in contact with as many friends as possible. Maintain every friendship. Attend gatherings and cohesions. Be filial to parents. Receive promotion/bonuses in company. Gain boss' trust. Travel around world. Invest and expand business. Be a millionaire.
So many things to do in life. So many things to achieve. All in your lifespan. Take the national's average lifespan. 80 years old. 20years old now, none of the above was achieved. None. And i'd just wasted one quarter of my life.
I'm ashamed of myself.
Even the simplest of all --- Attending friends gatherings/ cohesions, i've failed. Not once, but alot of times. And it tracks all the way back to secondary one, to now.
I hate my busy schedule. This's the thing that is affecting and obstructing my current life. It destroys my future plans. It adds zero value to my future. There's no turning back, i've chosen this path. I guess that leaves me to one last option. Time management. of course, i know i'm lousy in that.
i need to sort out everything. its too confusing. My life's now in a mess. Give me some time.
